My Wonderful Baby

Well after avoiding the baby thing for 20 years (im 36) I'm a dad.
My daughter was born on the 2 sept 06 and I have to admit its the
best thing that's happened to me in a long time. Her name is Caiya.
My partner already has 3 boys and this is my first.

At first I was a bit worried that I would not be a good dad (only
child that I am) and that she would not love me ... DAMM was I wrong!!! I'm the first person that she comes to when she is upset or crying. When I walk in the door after I finish work she crawls to me and pulls herself up, using my pants leg, to stand. She looks at me with those beautiful blue eyes, waiting for me to pick her up. The way she snuggles herself on to my shoulder and rests her head by my neck makes me melt.

Caiya is half European and half Maori and she is my angel ... even when she's crying her eyes out cause I have to put her down to get out of my work clothes.

At first it was hard to get myself into a routine when she first came into my life, but now at 1 she sleeps through the night which is good ... even if I do sneek into her room to make sure she is alright and has her blankets over her.

1 thing I have realised with having a child, and when my partner was pregnant, is how much my life has changed so dramaticly over the past year. I use to go out and party all night and get home in the early hours of the morning ... if I made it home but now I find I want to spend every minute at home ... even when I'm at work. I dont want to go out and party anymore, I just want to sit on the floor and play with Caiya.

When I'm mad or feeling a bit stressed out, all I have to do is look at my daughter and I feel instantly better ... her smile makes all the anger or stress vanish from within me ... I just hope it stays this way. lmao.

-Peter